Zilla of the Resistance, good friend and fellow anti-Islam blogger needs our help and prayers

ZILLA OF THE RESISTANCE

***So after years of suffering with doctors unable to figure out what has been wrong with me or how to make it better, my dentist inadvertently found the missing piece of the puzzle and may have saved my life in doing so. Now I need to find a doctor who is willing and able to treat me and, as I look for one, I am learning that obtaining treatment is very expensive. My friends in the Conservative Blogosphere are helping to raise awareness of my situation in the hopes that with help from Tip Jar Hitters, I will be able to the medical care I will need in order to get better and reclaim my life. Story of how I got here below, scroll down for updates.***

Originally published March 9, 2012 

This is an update for everyone who has been following my health issues. I apologize in advance if this turns out to be a confusing mess, but the nightmare I am living is complicated, hard to explain, and I am trying to do this through excruciating pain which makes it hard to focus – but I want those of you who are interested to know what’s been going on with me, and I hope that if there someone is suffering something similar, that they may find something helpful in this post and maybe realize that they are not alone.

Past posts with information about my medical issues in reverse chronological order:HEREHEREHERE, and HERE.

Beginning in the first week of January and going throughout February, I had been given six rounds of four different antibiotic medications to no avail, the infection that started in my tooth which had spread into my ear and my sinuses would improve after a couple of days of treatment and then revert back to horrible within a day or two of  the course of completion of each course of antibiotics. I have dangerous reactions to many of the most widely used antibiotic medications so doctors are limited in what they can prescribe to me. There was one very strong antibiotic medication that i am known to be able to tolerate that my dentist said we could try as a last resort if the 6th round of antibiotics failed, which it did, so I was given a ten day treatment with Levaquin that finally got the raging infection in my head under control. I finished that course about a week and a half ago and tomorrow I go back to the dentist to get something permanent put over that tooth, most likely we will try a simple filling because I can’t afford any of the other options right now (I don’t even know how I am going to pay for tomorrow’s appointment) and it is still possible that I’ll lose the tooth and the bridge it holds up some time in the future – but right now I don’t care, I just want the temporary filling replaced with something stronger before I get infected again. But a funny thing happened during all of this…

As I have explained before, I suffer from chronic pain due to nerve damage from injuries, ruptured discs and something else that has been misdiagnosed as a bunch of different things and that has plagued me for years. I have lived with most of these things for well over a decade, especially the problems with my hands, but the past few years and increasing especially in the past year, there have been new, painful, and frightening symptoms which have seriously messed up my life. I spend the first few hours of every day so crippled up from back pain that it is difficult to stand up straight, hard to walk, and just exhausting – sometimes these problems clear up after I’ve been up for a while, sometimes they don’t and I lose entire days of my life to pain and misery and am unable to do much of anything. Since last fall I have also been running low grade fevers and getting chills, on and off, throughout the day, every damned day. It has been hell.

I noticed that while I was on the various antibiotics I had to take this year for the infection in my head that within a few days of starting each treatment, my fevers and chills would stop and, for the first time in years, I would get some relief from the debilitating pain in my back and my bones, but within a few days of completing each course of antibiotics, I would be back to my usual misery, and sometimes even worse than before.

During the last round of antibiotics, with the ‘last resort’ medication Levaquin, for the first time in nearly 2 years, I actually felt much better; I still had the pain in my hands and feet that I will probably alsways have, but I had several glorious days when I woke up NOT feeling as if I had been hit by a train, I could stand up straight and walk with ease, and I wasn’t so freaking tired – I was actually able to get some things done around here and play more with my kids, I felt ALIVE! Sadly (and I daresay, predictably), a few days after completing that course of treatment, while my dental/sinus/ear infection were finally better, my body pain and exhaustion returned with a vengeance and has worsened with every passing day. So here I am now, with pain so bad that it has had me in tears on and off for two solid days (no, my pain does not normally make me cry but this time it is indescribably bad, scary and so damned frustrating), and depression from it all is really kicking my ass. But the temporary reprieve from the agony seemed to me an important clue to the mystery that torments me, so I brought it up the other day when I went to the pain management doctor.

I have been getting treated at this pain management facility for about a year; I had previously gone to orthopedics and then neurologists before I found this place. The first doctor I saw there said I had Fibromyalgia, but the more I researched it, the less I seemed to fit that particular bill, and she put me on new medications that made me so ill that I lost 40 pounds in 2 weeks. She also refused to give me anything for breakthrough pain as she was convinced that her idea was the solution and she become indignant when I questioned it and then she transferred my case to another practitioner in the facility.  The next person to treat me there was a registered nurse, and she actually listened to me, and she gave me actual medication for the pain instead of attempting to put me on things such as anti-seizure medication (I do not have seizures) like the other doctors had done, she read my chart and noticed that I had been infected with Lyme disease from tick bites on at least three separate occasions (I live in one of the top 3 highest concentrations of Lyme Disease in the world), she suggested that my bone pain could be due to arthritis caused by Lyme Disease but all she could do was adjust dosages of the pain medications and keep me on what was called “maintenence” which means I get the same pain meds every month that take keep some of the edge off of the pain so I can at least get out of bed every day but there was nothing that could actually make me not be in chronic pain every single day of my life with some days being far worse than others.  This last practitioner left the facility recently and I was assigned to a new doctor (an MD) who had just begun working there. Our first meeting was just to review what they had done so far and write the same scripts, then it was 3 months of “quick visits” where they simply give refill scripts for the meds, until this past week when I had a full consultation appointment with him.

So the other day I told the new doctor about the strange thing which had happened to me while on the antibiotics for an unrelated issue. I also made sure to mention that I had been repeatedly infected with Lyme Disease. To my surprise, he did not look surprised, and he explained to me that there are different variants of Late Stage Lyme Disease, some of which respond to oral or IV antibiotics and some which don’t. He told me that the testing for it is very expensive and not covered by insurance but even then tests aren’t 100% accurate anyway so doctors like him go with the “if it looks like a duck, walks like a duck…” method for diagnosing such things and that my accidental temporary reprieve from the pain with antibiotics was a huge and useful clue. I explained how badly I was feeling since stopping the antibiotics and asked if he could provide more but he said that it is dangerous to keep taking them after I have already been on so many in such a short time and also that because I have such weird reactions to so many medications (and dangerous food allergies as well) that he needed time to do some research to try to find an treatment that might be helpful to me. He will see me again for a consultation in one month and until then, all I have is my regular pain meds which are not particularly helpful right now.

I am sure that my current flare up will ease at some point, and I am happy that I finally found a doctor who seems to understand (he had previously worked for 20 years on Long Island’s East End where Lyme Disease is also prevalent so he has experience with it) but it sucks that I cannot be given any treatment for it right now and it is very depressing to have had a taste of what “better” feels like and knowing that it’s not something I will be able to get hold of again in the immediate future. So that’s what’s going on with me, I am hurting badly, very tired, and more than a little bit depressed and frustrated. Hopefully the dentist appointment goes well tomorrow and is not too expensive, I wonder if I can convince the dentist to give me antibiotics again so I can get a few more days of feeling like a real person just one more time? I doubt it, but it would sure be nice as I hate feeling like this and my husband and children deserve so much better than the miserable, sad, me that they are stuck with right now (although I try my best to smile through it all when I think they are looking, it gets harder every day to do and there is so much that they are all missing out of because I just can’t do much) and I feel like I am failing them.

If I haven’t bored you away yet, thank you for reading, any prayers you could offer up for me and my family would be greatly appreciated. Hopefully the current flare up will ease a little soon so I can at least get you all some new blog posts you might enjoy reading, but be sure to check my Twitter feed and the A-C page for news info as I do try to post a little bit to those places daily no matter how badly I feel, you can also find lots of great stuff in the blogroll in the left-hand margin of this blog.

UPDATE: March 10, 2012 6:30 am  

Thank you to everyone who has been sending prayers and offering kind words of encouragement, they mean the world to me!

Thank you to those of you who kindly hit my tip jar, I truly appreciate it and feel better knowing that I will be able to give the dentist something towards my bill when I go there this morning to (hopefully) have them finish up the work on that one bad tooth!

As much as I hated going through the dental/sinus hell, it turns out that the whole nightmare was a blessing in disguise as the accidental improvement of my body pain while taking antibiotics for the infection in my head led to having a doctor finally understand what has been wrong with me for all of this time.

Mysterious ways…

UPDATE II: March 10, 2012 11:00 pm

Last night my tooth began bothering me and when the dentist started poking around up there this morning, it hurt a lot. The infection up there is back again, but luckily not back up in my sinus yet. The dentist prescribed an antibiotic rinse and then when I asked him if he would write me a script knowing how sick I have gotten from this thing already, he kindly agree and even gave e a refill for “just in case”. The prescription is for the Levaquin that had the unexpected effect of making my years long body pain gt better for the first time ever and it is a medication that is recognized as a treatment for Late Stage Lyme Disease. I am hoping that I will be feeling better within a few days and even if it is only a temporary reprieve, at least I will have a chance to be productive for a bit and this also buys me a little bit more time as I search for a doctor who will be willing and able tot treat me so I can get better.

I have been doing research and have learned that many doctors who specialize in treatment of Late Stage Lyme operate on a cash only business to avoid some of the nasty red tape and big nanny state fuckery which becomes a barrier to the doctors ability to do right by his or her patients. And they don’t come cheap – one doctor I called requires a $1500 payment JUST for the initial consult, and requires a five hundred dollar security deposit just to be able to make the appointment! It is obvious that he is not a doctor I can afford to see but I am hoping I can find one who can see me and is willing to treat me without costing a ton of money. I am learning that people with this late stage Lyme have to pay a LOT of money for testing and treatment. Any money I can scrape together towards my health issues is going to be money that would otherwise be used to pay for food and our utility bills here, so I could really use some help. You will be helping to save my life and give back to my family the mom & wife that they deserve.

My friends in the Conservative Blogosphere are rallying on my behalf and I am so touched by it that I barely have words to express how much it means to me. Tom Mannis at Chicago News Bench came up with the idea of a fundraiser to help get me well and save my life. The guys at Waznmenttobe, Whoopie & Buffoon, came up with a cool widget for me that you will be seeing in the side bars at some of the best blogs around. Paul Lemmen of An Ex-Con’s View was also  instrumental in making this happen. I am deeply humbled to get so much love from so many people, words fail to describe the depths of my gratitude.

Thanks, everybody, and thank you to everyone who is putting up the Zilla-Aid widget and of course, a huge thank you to the kind people who have or will hit the tip jar.
Zilla Aid!

Update III: March 12, 2012 9:00 pm:

I am still in a lot of pain, but it seems to be getting a little bit better since I started the antibiotics again that were given to me by my wonderful dentist. The outpouring of kindness from friends and strangers alike is amazing, thank you all so very much!

Will Profit at Capitalist Preservation posted an email from me (with my permission) that explains some of the things I have learned as I have been doing research and trying to find treatment that will hopefully keep me from getting any worse and ideally help me to get better and give me back my life. Excerpts below:

I need to find what they call a Lyme Literate doctor (LLMD) but because of the nanny-state’s interference, most of the Lyme specialists operate on a cash only basis and it is very expensive – one doctor I called charges $1500 just for the initial consult visit and requires a $500 deposit just to even make the appointment! Obviously that is out of my league and I am not willing to drop that kind of money on a doctor that I have not even met before I know if he can even help me, so I will spend the coming weekdays calling around to see if I can find a regular doctor who understands this disease and is willing to help me to fight it. The fact that I respond to oral antibiotics is a great blessing because a lot of people with this disease do not and they end up having to endure months of IV antibiotics, sometimes pumped directly into their hearts! It is “controversial” to give a patient long term courses of antibiotics because the side effects include killing the “good” bacteria in the body and puts people at risk of serious problems, and also, people are afraid of creating resistant bacteria and triggering a zombie apocalypse. Hopefully I can find a doctor who will be able to help me not only get the treatment I need but also to prevent some of the scary stuff such treatment may put me at risk for, and of course, be prepared to avoid triggering a zombie apocalypse.
Lyme Literate doctors are not generally open about what they do because big nanny state puts a lot of them under investigation and at risk of losing their medical licenses so there is actually a Lyme Disease ‘underground’ that involves privately contacting people who may know a doctor who can help just to find treatment. People getting treated are urged not to publish the names of their doctor or any contact information because it can put the doctors at risk. How messed up is that? I suspect it will worsen under Obamacare and will not just effect Lyme doctors; anyone who deviates from big-nanny approved methods will be targeted – there are already a growing number of doctors in many different fields who no longer accept insurance and operate as cash only so they have less hoops to jump through in order to properly care for their patients.   MORE HERE

There will likely be more doctors in many different fields going “off the grid” as Obamacare draws near and the noose of bureaucratic micromanaging tightens on healthcare providers who fail to do what they are told by a panel of pencil pushers rather than do what is best for their patients. When I am feeling a little better, I plan to do some investigative blogging about this phenomenon.

Thank you again to everyone who is helping, linking and praying for me, God bless you, I love you all.

If any BNI readers can offer any medical advice or referrals, please contact her here: Zilla@MareZilla.com  

Or at her website here: ZILLA OF THE RESISTANCE

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14 comments on “Zilla of the Resistance, good friend and fellow anti-Islam blogger needs our help and prayers

  1. Thank you so much, Bonni and all of the wonderful BNI readers!
    Sorry it took me a few days to get here, but the treatment for the Lyme is now kicking my butt (supposedly that’s a good thing as it means they drugs are beating up the disease but I feel like death).
    I have found a doctor less than an hour form my home who is the leading expert in both research and treatment for this disease and thanks to the all of the wonderful people who have been helping me i was able to make my initial visit there and am now under his care.
    Thank you all for the prayers, I KNOW they are helping!
    May God bless and protect you all.
    Thanks again, Bonni, I love you!

    • Zilla, I sure hope you have finally found a doctor who can help you. And it’s a good thing we are not under Obama deathcare yet, or you would no longer be able to get help from the best doctors. In fact, they would have written you off a long time ago.

      WE will continue to pray for your recovery as we do for the death of ObamaCare.

      • I did find a doctor, one of the best in his field, just under an hour away and y’all enabled me to go and pay for my first visit last week! :) They took about LOT of blood for testing, and I got the results of those test yesterday which I’ll write about at my blog soon but it was basically a good news/bad news thing being saying that I am sicker than I had suspected, but it could have been much worse, the treatment will continue: first I finish the antibiotics my dentist had given and then they switch me to something else to kill the OTHER tick borne infection I they found while still fighting the Lyme. I will be on antibiotics of one kind or another for at least 6 months, probably much longer.

        Sorry it took me so long to get back here, I was really sick for about a week because when Lyme bacteria die, they release a neurotoxin which poisons their host victim, it’s called a Herximer reaction. I was pretty messed up with some scary neurological & cognitive problems for a few days.
        I seem to be recovering from that bit of horror now and am just left with the regular Lyme sick and pain which, in comparison to the Herx reaction, is an improvement. :)

        I should be back to beating up the bad guys from my blog soon; as long as my head is clear enough to link & write and I am able to sit at my computer to do it, I will resume giving hell to islamic supremacists and their leftist enablers.

        Thank you for everything you’ve done, Bonni, and thank you for being the most bestiest at righteous badassery against the #flamingmoes! I learn so much from you!

      • So good to hear from you Zilla. We are sad that you are going thru so much pain, but relieved to know that at least
        they have diagnosed the problem and are treating it. When you post about it again, please send me the link and I
        will add an update here.

  2. check out the following…..35% food grade hydrogen peroxide,virgin coconut oil, olive leaf extract, turmeric……….they are all anti-viral……..oxygen heals,,,,,,thus hydroen peroxide…….put in in your search and it will explain the regimen…….there is a book called “the one minute cure” by Madison Cavanaugh……..it is hydrogen peoxide……the claims on disease is astounding!!!…….I pray that you check this out

  3. I’m so sorry Zila. I know chronic pain, have lived as you describe since 06. Pain management Dr. Basically gave me back some of my old self. After 2 yrs of pain that I cried through for nearly 3 yrs. I would of drank pee with a lemon slice, if someone said it worked. I know that may seem dramatic to ppl who have never had your own body attack you. Have you tried site injections? Pain patches? I have a cousin who just spent weeks in icu over some bacterial infection ( possibly food poisoning) that has left her in a walker. She is 33. No insurance. Have you researched The Cleveland Clinic? They have some of the best? I will pray for your relief from pain. Pray you find the right doctors and treatment.

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